was afraid to ASK WHAT I WANTED, here’s why🤷🏾‍♀️

Good morning ☀️

Where do I begin, well I’ll just start. Growing up I believed that I couldn’t have what I wanted. If I was given something it was either, one something I didn’t truly want or two i believed that if I wanted it I had to get it myself but it always felt like I couldn’t truly have what I wanted. So on my journey of healing, discovering, unveiling, and revealing I was being guided every step of the way, along with my free will to step into the unknown, while remembering who I truly am.

Want to know who you truly are? Take a look back at the child you were. Right around the time before you cared what anyone thought of you or had an opinion about you.

When you were carefree and authentically you! This is who you really are! Before the blocks set in and before the fears set in. Now my question to you is, could your old beliefs that you keep around out of fear be the very thing blocking you from your bliss? I know that it was for me and I’m here to share with you my story. As my old beliefs were leaving my system, one of the BIGGEST strongholds I had was the belief that life was hard, and what I mentioned to you earlier about not truly having what I wanting and being afraid to love. It was those very beliefs that I found myself wrestling with this week. I was being awakened early in the morning, late at night. As if my guardian angels and guidance team was rewiring my system. I didn’t feel stressed but I did feel something happening within me that I couldn’t quite articulate. Then it happened! I had shared with a friend about one of the blocks I had about love and how that block lifted off of me that night. 🙌🏾 Right when I confessed it that night and felt it, I had a ROUGH time sleeping 😴. I was tossing and turning and it carried till the next morning and into the day. I cried, was angry, paused, cried some more, was angry and paused some more.

What was happening, I believe was when I made the exchange to release that stronghold/block within me, the lower part of me was having a struggle with releasing and letting go. My system was being upgraded but my fears wanted to stay. The old part of me that was afraid and wanted to stay angry, the part of me that felt I wasn’t protected and kept my wall up because of it, that part of me who NEVER ALLOWED HERSELF TO BREATHE, that was the identity in me. The part of me that was afraid to open my heart . The part of me in which I identified myself as being afraid to love, not getting what I wanted, and staying defensive.

That part of me I thought that I had to keep around.